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Driving Past Insecurity
Day-to-day living got easier. I had a scheduled routine with work. I was able to walk and move every day. I had new things to learn, which kept my mind occupied. I still needed to save some money and buy a car, but I was on the right track. I asked my manager if there…
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My New Job
It was September 15, 2023. Things were looking up. I had my lights and water turned back on. I had a new job beginning in three days. I had a ride to and from work. All I had to do now was to stay sober. It wasn’t so much the physical part that concerned me.…
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Love Thy Neighbor
So there I am, sitting in my house: no power, no water, no job, and no vehicle. Not only that, but I had no way to get the van back to my house so that I could figure out what to do next. My rent was coming due again and I was running out of…
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Powerless
Not sleeping very much, my drug use, and work were starting to take their toll on me. No matter how much I did or wanted to achieve, I seemed to never be able to get there. I started having mental breaks-these delusions-I’m guessing it was burnout on steroids. I was always so confident in what…
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The Cracks Begin to Show
The next few months were a little touch and go with my mental health, but after some time passed I became more and more sure of myself. I threw myself into work during the day and into hooking up at night. My meth addiction was hitting its full stride. On the up side, my drinking…
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Reclaiming My Space
At this point in time I am confused, angry, terrified, hurt, and I’m starting to realize that things are getting out of control. I was a drug addict, yes, but this was too much. I didn’t realize that people would come into your life and even when you showed them kindness that they would take…
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Uninvited
The next few weeks and months went by and I spent the time reinventing myself and working. I started losing weight, I bought all new clothes, I changed my hair style and color, all while still deeply mourning the loss of my relationship and, of course, smoking meth. I was trying to find the old…
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Lost in My New World
My name is Justin. I am a 44-year-old gay male from East Tennessee. I want to write this blog to inform folks of what addiction to meth looks like- where I’ve been, and where I am now. I want you to know that you can do more than just survive meth addiction. You can thrive…